Rest

Yesterday, I had been dreading the intubation possibility but once it had occurred, I became sort of silent inside. Fear subsided. Little energy for that anymore as the deep achiness of fear drenched days were replaced by fatigue, I thought.

But I realized today, much to my own surprise, that I am not silent inside but rather calm instead. Though I feared and dreaded intubation, Philip can rest now. He remains intubated and sedated but no longer paralyzed. He is resting easily and somehow so am I.

Anne

January 23, 2021