I had a reiki session today. My Reiki darling asked me to set an intention for the session. She told me that I might get very emotional which is what I actually was looking for. I asked to release my grief about Philip and Uncle David.
I wanted an outward expression of our loss. An explosion of emotions would do just fine.
Lying on the exam table, I did my measured breathing, attempting to relax with intention. The session was lovely but the release I thought I needed didn’t come.
She told me that I have a very peaceful energy and a lot of light around me. She said I was very open and peaceful and calm.
As I considered her words, I wondered. I perceive grief as darkness to be released but maybe, instead, it is light to be welcomed.
Could it be that to embrace the love which is at the center of the grief is to be empowered to endure? It may lead to an outward release but it begins with an inward acceptance.
And so perhaps my Reiki intention was accomplished after all.
What if grief is not darkness. What if grief is light? A gift with which to see…
Anne on Long Island
April 7, 2022
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